Table of Contents

1. Suddenly, Independence. 2. Growing Up. 3. The Japanese Invaders. 4. After the Liberation. 5. My Cambridge Days. 6. Work, Wedding and Politics. 7. My First Clashes with the Government. 8. Widening the Oxley Road Circle. 9. The World of the Chinese-educated. 10. Enter the PAP. 11. Round One to the Communists. 12. Marshall Accentuates the Crisis. 13. A Fiasco in London. 14. Exit Marshall, Enter Lim Yew Hock. 15. Three-quarters Independent. 16. Flushing Out the Communists. 17. Rendezvous with the Plen. 18. Election 1959-We Fight to Win. 19. Taking Charge. 20. Glimpses of Troubles Ahead. 21. Trounced in Hong Lim. 22. The Tunkus Merger Bombshell. 23. Eden Hall Tea Party. 24. Communists Exposed. 25. Moving Towards Merger. 26. Getting to Know the Tunku. 27. A Vote for Merger. 28. Europe Beckons Britain. 29. Pressure from Sukarno. 30. Bitter Run-up to Malaysia. 31. The Tide Turns. 32. Singapore Declares Independence. 33. Konfrontasi. 34. Winning Friends in Africa. 35. Venturing into the Malay Heartland. 36. Albar Stokes Up Malay Heartland. 37. Singapore-KL Tensions Mount. 38. Constitutional Rearrangements? 39. Seeking Support Down Under. 40. UMNOs 'Crush Lee' Campaign. 41. The Quest for a Malaysian Malaysia. 42. The Tunku Wants Us Out. 43. 'Talak, Talak, Talak' (I Divorce Thee). Chronology of Events. Index.